''It's definitely more of a fantasy when you watch [porn] than when you make it,'' says Adam Killian. ''But it can be a fantasy when you make it, too.''
The long-ago Playgirl model has been a leading cameraman in the gay porn industry for a decade now. The 35-year-old hairy muscleman only decided to join the action on screen a couple years ago. ''It was nice to wait so long,'' he says, ''because I really knew exactly what I was doing and what I was getting myself into.''
And because of his experience and relationships, directors, including Chi Chi LaRue, allowed Killian pretty much from the get-go to call his own shots, as well as to choose his scene partners. In other words, he can live out his fantasies. He's starred in nearly a dozen films for LaRue's Rascal Video Productions, Falcon, Raging Stallion and Michael Lucas.
Killian, who this year alone won his first two GayVN and Grabby porn acting awards, only expects to remain a star for another year or two. ''I don't really think the shelf life for being on camera is that long,'' he says. So after a turn, he'll revert back to just being behind the camera. And of course appearing on stage.
''I've been dancing pretty much my whole life,'' he says. The Monterrey, Calif., native started go-go dancing at gay clubs before he even graduated high school, which then continued while in college at the University of California-Santa Cruz. He eventually started doing erotic-tinged performance shows with backup dancers at circuit parties, including D.C.'s Cherry in 2003. But on stage he's always been clothed in some fashion -- even during ''full-on sex'' shows, such as at San Francisco's Folsom leather party last month. ''I had chaps on and a harness and a jock -- a lot of costume,'' he says. Which is why his appearance this weekend at Secrets is noteworthy.
''Secrets is probably going to be the first club I've ever danced at fully naked,'' he says. Of course, the exhibitionist is more excited than worried, noting, with a laugh, ''After doing movies it's not a big deal.''
Adam Killian appears Friday, Oct. 8, and Saturday, Oct. 9, at Secrets, 1824 Half St. SW. Cover is $5 before 10:30 p.m.; $10 after. Call 202-863-0670 or visit secretsdc.com.